Pep Talk

Its nights like these that I need one of your pep talks. I feel useless and stupid and unworthy. I feel like an idiot and in the back of my head I can hear you say I knew you could do it. I knew my girl had it in her. I knew you had it in you. And most days I think you're the only person in the whole goddamn world who believe that about me. I miss you so much it makes me sick.

And what kills me even more is that I've let you become my identity. I've put my faith and soul in you. Even now 5 years later I am forever waiting on you. And probably always will.

Listen. Listen very closely.

What's the point? I feel unimportant and bullied. And I feel like a waste of time. Having an opinion is useless if you can't get anyone to understand where you're coming from. There is more than one right way. There may not even be a right way but more different views. When people ask for your view on something and then shut down what you have to say it doesn't make you feel very good. Her opinion gets to be right because she knows better and she's older and she has more experience. What do I know? I'm just a kid. I have done this long enough to have a view worth listening to. Why bring me into this if everything I say gets shut down. It would be better for you to exclude me completely than let me in and then not give what I have to say a chance. I don't wanna be right. I just want to be heard.